Tonight I made it to a 12 step meeting for the first time in a couple of months. I am so glad that I went! I was able to see some old friends (some of them 20 years!), and some new friends, and I picked up a temporary sponsee, which will help my own program.
The topic of the meeting was step 7 and that means that the topic of the meeting was humility: its necessity in our lives, the way living without humility leads to unhappiness for me and the people around me, the way I struggle against learning humility until I get it that humility is the only road to peace and contentment. It was a really good reinforcement of the idea that I need to actively seek humility, not just practice acceptance, but actively seek opportunities to rely on God, rather than myself. Not just practice acceptance, I need to actively work towards knowing that every step I take away from self is a step towards God and His Will. Now being an alcoholic, I'm going to find a way to screw this up, if I allow myself to over analyze it, so I am going to work towards acceptance and doing God's Will, and trust that my Higher Power, whom I choose to call God, will make me whatever He Wants me to be.
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